Friday, August 13, 2010

Friday

Friday

This last week has been a whirlwind...work, a trip to Philly to enjoy time with my Son and meet "the One"...sleeping in...running every morning...brunch...dinner and drinks with great people...and navigating Philly with some confidence.  

One of many fabulous things about Philly is that shoes and clothes do not require the addition of tax during the purchase transaction.  Head Start Shoes is heaven on earth, and the Rittenhouse Rescue Spa truly knows how to perform a facial.

This is a picture I shot of a window in the Rittenhouse Square area of town.  I liked the way the drapes...were draped...there is a feel in the air in Philly...one of excitement and perhaps contentment...I think about relocating...and am evaluating my level of courage...hmmmm....


Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Great Things Come in 2's...

Great Things Come in 2's

Giovanni is growing in leaps and bounds.  Holding him is an experience unknown to me until now...and watching him learn about his now limited World is so interesting.  Earlier this week he guided his walker down the hallway, occasionally getting caught up against the wall, and able to push himself away...back into the line of "traffic"... his face just beaming...

This is a picture I took this week of him, and his lovely Mother...they are quite the pair.  I admire how she enjoys every minute with him...as I know, though the chaos of child rearing never seems to end..."some day" it will suddenly be over...and you are left with memories...and hopefully gifted with a Grandchild...


Sunday, August 1, 2010

Boy Meets Horse!

                               
        Boy Meets Horse!

Today is Giovanni's 8 month "Birthday"!  We celebrated by taking him to the barn, and introducing him to our friend's horses!   He loved the softness, and the manes...and actually took a brief ride supported by his Mom and Samantha.


This is my favorite picture of the series...taken in the barn, after his ride!  Perhaps we will be seeing him in a Lead Line Class towards the end of the year! 


Saturday, July 31, 2010

Saturday

Saturday = No Pictures Today!

So I took a ride tonight in search of today's perfect picture.  I decided that the old Rail Yard suited my need for some rust...  I was re-routed because of some type of an "old car rally" that closed many of the downtown streets...tax payer dollars at their finest as the Highway Patrol and City of Sac Police waived me on...

I am really not sure how to gain access to the Rail Yard...I saw from a distance the gorgeous rust and imperfect buildings...probably not a place to investigate on my own...though I may try again tomorrow...




Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Gene Pool

                                                                              Gene Pool

Okay...so this has nothing to do with my day, my life, my dreams...

This is a picture from (again) the Zoo...the Handlers attached branches of leaves to poles so that we, the observers, could watch the Giraffes' eat.  This guy was pretty cute...and I after today I am wondering about the specifics of his "pool"...




Monday, July 26, 2010

Fractured

Fractured

Reminds me of a femur, ulna, radius or heart...some days your personality, or your views in general.  Great thing that the World still turns, and hope still springs eternal.

I am one of the luckiest people in the World!  Tomorrow my Father turns 83 years old.  He is the one person who despite all screw ups and odds has loved me every day of my life...no matter how imperfect I am, or how I think, behave or conduct my life.  A true gift, and one I attempt to apply to my children and grandchild...though following in his footsteps requires a boot several sizes larger than I possess.

This is another picture from the Zoo series...another that reminded me of China...it is a window of an old car under renovation...that has not made it to the top of the list...and another shot that I have taken that when I walk away...draws crowds that wander over to see what was shot worthy...and fail to understand...oh well, maybe next time...

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Sunday

                                                                              Sunday

Awe...the fabulous-ness of Sunday...time flies when I am goofing around on the computer!

Yesterday and this morning I met my goal of cleaning out my walk in closet...and guess what...I can now walk in!  And I am one step closer to my next step!  Yeah me!!!

I considered posting a picture of my closet...though this photo won out.  It is from my Zoo shoot earlier this week...and is a view of the side wall where the engine in this car is housed!  I shot it at an odd angle...while several car enthusiasts watched me...then asked what the heck I was doing...an explanation that does not exist, how can you explain something as beautiful and  fascinating as this!


Friday, July 23, 2010

Friday

 Friday

Okay...I am a day off for the photo...though today was productive and held an invitation to dinner with my lovely daughter, grandson and baby daddy (!)

I bought boxes, tape and marking pens today...and am beginning my journey of getting down to the brass tacks of cleaning out and making way for my future.  How did I accumulate so many things over the past 28 years...and how many of them do I really need in my coming life...the next couple of weeks should be interesting.

This is a picture I shot last night at the Zoo...a perfect headlight of one of the display cars.  If you look carefully, you can see my reflection within the headlight...a style of pictures that I have come to enjoy creating.  

I am content to be making forward progress, and am looking forward to were my journey will take me...hopefully somewhere nice!

Thursday, July 22, 2010

It's All Happening At The Zoo...

It's All Happening At The Zoo...

Shades of Simon and Garfunkle...Twilight at the Zoo was hopping tonight...great band, great antique cars, great friends and a perfect shot of the rear end of a Flamingo.

Funny how there are gifts within every day...I am learning to watch and learn...and see what is there instead of what I think should be there...

It was nice to meet a new friend, and bump into an old friend today...and I must say...I love this Flamingo rear...they are such beautiful birds...and the feathers are "remarkable impressive" ... a twist on today's perfect quote! 


Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Shock and Awe...well...Not Really...

Shock and Awe...Well...Not Really...

I know myself pretty well, and most days I can see the writing on the wall.  Today was no exception...some fabulous hours, not a surprise...though the bottom line of what it all means continues to be clear as mud to me.

I was advised last week by a friend to "live in the moment"...I think I do that now more than I ever have...though that is still not my most comfy space...and I think that I need a "deeper" meaning...

This is a picture I took at the Sacramento Ice House several months ago.  It has a special meaning and I love the colors...and there it is...that "love" word again...

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

Lady Bug

 
Lady Bug

I have had moments of feeling like I am in the middle of a hornet's nest the past few weeks.  I can hear the whining and the buzzing...and it compels me to close my eyes and wait for the sting.

Since I am lacking a photo of hornets, I randomly remembered one of my favorites from a long wandering drive along the Sacramento River last Spring, where I stopped and shot in the drizzle time and time again.  

These two were enjoying themselves on the side of the road...frankly, I was a bit envious...I have grayed out the background with a new iPad App...and am pretty pleased with how the bugs pop! ... must be nice ... 






Monday, July 19, 2010

Something I Had Forgotten About...

Something I Had Forgotten About...

When I first became single, I spent time looking for symbols and words that would help me make sense of hours in the days and nights.  One of the first things I bought was an antique stained glass window that I had intended to relocate to my "home" ... once I found it.

Nearly three years later, the window has graced several corners of my old/current home ... and along with me, has not quite found its way into our future!  Today as I was once again gazed at the window while conference calling, I noticed the beautiful corner rich with peeling paint and a bit of rust (pictured above)...and somehow the day just got better!


Sunday, July 18, 2010

When Someone...

When Someone...

I have a thick skull...something that sometimes serves me well and other times does not.  A recent friend of mine has a saying..."When someone shows you who they, believe them..."  though I love the saying, and really do "get" it...I am not good at this...

I think it is the "nurse" part of me that never believes that I cannot "fix"
 it.  Today I am considering switching careers!

This is a picture I took in Unionville...where things are simple, quiet and lovely...something I am hoping to recreate in my everyday life...soon...




Saturday, July 17, 2010

White Knight

White Knight

I struggle to get enough rust in my life to fill the void that requires it.  As some souls need music, my soul needs rust...makes me wonder what my Mother ate, drank, or breathed while I was in utero...perhaps it is a latent response to the lead paint I was exposed to as a child!

This is another picture from the past few months...that menopause has erased the details of from my memory.  I like that is fluctuates between appearing as a horse head to the vague resemblance of a knight.  In a perfect World this is what MY knight would look like...simply beautiful with rust around the edges...



Friday, July 16, 2010

My Daughter is a Quarter of a Century Old!

My Daughter is a Quarter of a Century Old!

Today marks the 25th Birthday of my daughter.  I clearly remember the shock and awe of finding out I was pregnant again, and the joy of seeing her slide out of me.  Raising her was a challenge...which made me a stronger woman and Mom. 

As I think back to our days of sharing the love of Elvis, the year her soccer team was not scored on due to her aggressive back field play and the day I carried her off the field with a broken foot while she screamed at the top of her lungs "I want to go back in!",  her fabulous friends who I still admire, several days of "makeovers!" and the years that her back did not support her, I am greatful to have been so blessed and gifted with Laur.

This is a picture I took during a wonderful day at Mare Island.  I have found that I see "faces" in places I would not expect or would have seen them several years ago.  I do see differently now than I did before, and that is one of the many gifts that have come out of the past several years...and I look forward to sharing this view with my future...

 


Thursday, July 15, 2010

Blogging


Blogging

Words are piling up, and have had no where to go ... so today as I sat in the Little Rock Airport it struck me that resuming this blog that talks to myself would be a great thing to do.

Gears have shifted and projects are left in limbo. Luckily, my mind is never short on ideas ... so the two on the front burner will be a nice distraction over the next few weeks.

First on the agenda ... clean up my old dirt ... and secure a "home" ... if I can pull this off, even I will be impressed with myself.

This is a picture that I am unsure of its location ... I am thinking Mare Island ... though perhaps I am off ... regardless ... I like the upward view ...

Thursday, April 8, 2010

New Man Around the House

New Man Around the House

The testosterone is growing in small leaps and bounds. After a full day of T & D (parent talk for Trauma and Drama...coined by my friend Barbara) ... Super G and his lovely Mother now are once again residents of my house...leaving the entire space a bit crowded. I must admit that he smells amazing, is cute as a button, shows off a newly learned behavior everyday and can vomit like no other ... still it feels a bit foreign and at the same time is a real memory jogger of my days gone by.

This is a picture I took this afternoon as he was "settling in" ... wouldn't it be nice to go back in time to the day when drinking warm milk, being held, and asking for dry pants were the only things on your plate....ahhh....the simple life!

Monday, April 5, 2010

Cereal

Cereal

Another day, another milestone in the life of Giovanni...today he was introduced to the fabulous World of "cereal"...two bites to be exact...and being the Bubba Chunk he is...he loved it!

It is funny to watch him change everyday...I don't remember my own children waking up different..though I think I was just too exhausted to notice.

This is a picture I took yesterday, as the Easter festivities were in full swing. Giovanni is super strong, and in this pose he is standing on Laur's lap..."jumping" up and down.

I am so happy to be living in the age of point, shoot and send...I cannot imagine missing one second of this very fascinating adventure...called "Grandma"...

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Easter

Easter

Another Holiday, another disappointment I have hidden from the World. Yesterday I was preparing to move, had hired movers, ordered phone service and was fairly well packed. Today I am stationary...broken hearted...and breathing through the moment, and deciding where to live.

I was told that my feelings mattered, and openness was easy...last night, my feelings did not matter, and openness was closed. This has been ongoing...and more than I are tired of the outcome, which has been unsuccessful partnership...without roots to carry one through the difficult times...no documentation, no promises of the future, no proposed commitment or intention...feelings undisclosed, and persons unwilling to share the deepest feelings and thoughts...due to fear and rejection...a true self fulfilling cycle...we both loose.

Today was Easter, and sparkliness was the word of the day. Time spent with my Father, 1st Stepmother, 2nd Stepmother, daughter and perfect grandson...priceless...this is a picture I took of my Father and his Great Grandson...truly a gift from God.

Somewhere or possibly nowhere is someone who will love me and be open in spite of sickness, health, employment, depression, whim or a bad hair day...or perhaps there is not...I am praying that the rawness of yesterday is manageable soon...and that I can move on to the next big adventure...wish me luck.


Friday, April 2, 2010

Life on the Road

Life on the Road

Funny that you learn when you are not really paying attention. Last week on yet another road trip as I was brainstorming with a colleague, she shared with me that she had directed 2 other colleagues to "pack that shit up in a suitcase and bury it in the desert." At the time, I found that directive hysterically funny...and did not understand that this was some really meaningful advice.

I have a need for conversation and understanding...this week I have come to understand that some things are not "conversible" (my word), and/or understandable. This has been difficult for me...and I have had a bit of trouble adjusting...

So...I have spent several hours this week packing up my shit...and burying it. Now that it is "gone"...I do feel better...

This is a picture I took earlier this week while exploring the Ice House, which I will miss when they mow it down in the name of progress...


Thursday, April 1, 2010

Ice House


Ice House

Some of the most difficult situations that I have found myself in are those I have created. That in mind, I have now given myself a pat on the back (great job), a round of applause (what was I thinking) and a swift kick to my backside (get the hell on your way)...and these 3 components have made today better.

Amy had said that "the hardest battle you will ever fight is the battle to be yourself"...and I would translate that to include "learn who you are". Today feels as if that goal may be insight...and I will enjoy this small victory as long as it will last.

This is a picture of the old Ice House, midtown Sacramento. It has been boarded up and closed for years, and will be leveled to make way for a Loft Project in the near future. Old buildings fascinate me, and I enjoy observing their past...

Monday, March 15, 2010

Who Knows What the Day Will Bring?


Who Knows What the Day Will Bring?

Two days in a row that were not what I could have imagined or hoped for...is this the new trend...and can I be that free and easy?

Last night I was treated to a belated Birthday dinner that included Champagne Cake...my favorite. I was able to hold Giovanni for 30 minutes, and brainstorm my daughters' Monday night College presentation...today held more brainstorming, holding, snuggling, 4 calls from Mogy, massage, interesting conversation, dinner with Virginia, and post day life discussion with Laur...how lucky am I?!

This is one of several pictures of Giovanni I shot this week...and without his parents' permission...I entered him in a Gerber Baby Contest!

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Reflections

Reflections

Some day I may be able to look at something and just see what is there. For now, I look and see what is there, the layers, and a portion of my brain comes up with what it "could" be. While I love the layers, the constant multi-views are tiring...and the to-do list in my head is taller than I am.

This is a picture I shot in New York City last weekend of a building across from Battery Park. I was celebrating my 54th Birthday, a number that seems excessively high to me. I do not feel 54...more like a fabulous 47...though the difference is that I am closer than I have ever been to knowing who I want to be, and what makes me happy .

How it will end up I do not know, though recently I have begun to believe that this phase will never end...and this evolution of seeking the path I am destined for is the new permanent state of my being...and I guess that will keep my remaining time on this fabulous Earth interesting....

Thursday, March 4, 2010

If this is Thursday, it must be Philly!

If this is Thursday, it must be Philly!

Thursday has finally come...and is nearly gone...I am in Philly...seeing my perfect Son, waiting for dinner and looking forward to meeting his new "friend"...

Plane ride was uneventful, a great thing in a plane ride. Upon arrival, I was notified that said Son was in the "cell phone lot"...and a quick call back to say the car was not starting...so charming a taxi driver to find said Son, and jump his Lexus....priceless! Instead of jumper cables...his trunk yielded whiskey...not a bad substitute, though I prefer tequila...

So let the fun begin...this is a picture I took nearly 2 years ago at Eastern State Prison here in Philly...I love the peeling paint and my photos from that trip are among my favorites. Speaking of photos, I finished my Death Valley Book on the plane today, and look forward to sending it off for publication...one more part of my life documented...

Tomorrow I am off to New York City...and looking forward to the photo opportunities and friends there...54 is looking not so bad today...

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Twisted Tuesday

Twisted Tuesday

I am looking forward to the time that I can wake up and have a vague feeling about how my day will start, and how it will end. Though initially I thought this might be boring, I could use a block of time that I did not have to re-engineer constantly.

I am over half way to dead, and that will be emphasized with another number up later this week. Tomorrow I begin my journey to Philly...with hopefully a side trip to NYC...to celebrate.
This new number adds yet another kick in the pants to get my life in order...and damn...just when I was thinking that order was a complete fantasy...

So the question of the day for me is how courageous am I...and how many things am I willing to change at once...all, none, or somewhere in the middle...and how do I decide. Being in charge of your own destiny is both exhilarating and deeply frightening...I am looking forward to seeing myself through...hoping there may be someone on the other side to catch me...

This is a picture I took Sunday on the drive to recreate to photos that went missing in Baltimore. A twisted pile of metal, rust, paint and all over junk...still one of my favorite loves'!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Sunday...


Sunday...

I am behind again...somewhere I am getting comfy being. The beginning of my week was spent in Baltimore...the roads were clear, the parking lots were piled with snow taller than I...and I know for those who know me you are probably not impressed with the description of height!...all the same, it was amazing to this California Girl...the end of the week was occupied with my MIL having a heart attack, several hours of alone time with Giovanni, and my daughter sharing time with my Father and her son...

Today, I tried to reconstruct the photos that I lost when my G10 went missing in Baltimore. My "system" was off...and I think that the rain and mud in the Logan Steakhouse parking lot claimed my G. I had been shooting down in Hood and Clarksburg on the previous rainy Sunday, and in my haste to pack and set the house, I neglected to download...a mistake I will not make again.

I am now the owner of the G11...by default. I did not realize how much I loved my G10, until I was trying to set the settings on the G11...another one of many electronics that is smarter than I am.

These are my 2 favorites from today...the ladybugs I did not shoot last week, the barn I had. It was interesting to repeat a previous journey...it seemed shorter today...I knew where the exciting views were...and did miss the rhythm of last weeks rain...

Friday, February 19, 2010

Memphis


Memphis

Rarely do I post 2 pictures in a day...though after being undecided as whether to post one of my Beale Street favorites and the most outrageous view I saw, I decided to go with both. Memphis was unusual, nice people, full of great food though the work was stressful.

Wednesday morning greeted me with a roach in my bathroom, and NO I do not stay at Roach Motels...that should have been a clue as to how the day would go...and in hindsight...it was.

The first picture is one of the Bar buildings on Beale Street...perhaps a want to be New Orleans, though empty at 5 pm. The second is a toilet seat...yes, that is correct a toilet seat in the shape of a guitar...what will they think of next?

Next week is Baltimore, and the following week I will be dining with my Son for my Birthday...priceless...I wonder if I will journey back to Eastern State...I will see.

Friday, February 12, 2010

New and Old

New and Old

I feel closer to finding my way than perhaps I have ever been. The last days have brought a sense of peace, which I may be disrupting tomorrow...sometimes a girl has to do what a girl has to do.

This is a picture I shot on the way home from the beach on Wednesday. Again, I have traveled past this barn many times...and this week I was lucky enough to stop and shoot. I love the combination of the new and the old...and wonder if the next time I pass this way if the new door will be painted to match the old red...

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The Beach

The Beach

In between "duties as assigned", I took a side journey with the pugs to the Beach today. They were overjoyed to travel, and pugtona on the sand. We met a man who had 3 pugs, and he said Jack and Hannah were beautiful...who was I to disagree...!!!

There were several sights on the ride to the Beach that I have seen previously, and wanted to photograph. The advantage of traveling alone is that you can start and stop on your schedule...and we did.

This is a picture of an "out" building that I have wanted to see up close and personal. I also met a cat who had seen better days...he or she was not impressed with Jack's chatter...which is intermittent on any car ride...with the exception of a "missed call", a fabulous day...


Monday, February 8, 2010

Baltimore...Canceled

Baltimore...Canceled

Thanks to Mother Nature and 26 to 30 inches of white wrath...I am grounded for the week. I have decided to take some time and take a journey that has been in the back of my mind for the past 2 weeks...perhaps that will help reconcile some of the challenges I am dealing with...perhaps it will not.

Next week is Memphis, and I am looking forward to getting back on the road, and having a week of distraction...seeing sites that are new...my camera is ready to go!

This is a picture I took yesterday on the way back from Clarksburg...it is similar to a car I shot last year that was a turquoise blue...one of my all time favorites. I loved how it was sitting off in a field on the side of the Roadway...calling my name!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Superbowl Sunday

Superbowl Sunday

Another day that I had not imagined over the past few months...seems to be the reality of the day...I missed the potential clam dip that might have been copied... Last night was a Rotary Wine Tasting Fundraiser that I volunteered to assist via my PugSavers connection. It was at the Sugar Mill in Clarksburg...somewhere I had been 2 years ago, that involved a visit and lunch at a Biker Bar...last night and today was much more sane...possibly...

Today I took a ride back to the Sugar Mill to take photographs. It is wonderful place filled with my favorite subjects, peeling paint and rust. I am learning to shoot alone...that is a change from the feeling of partnership...and there are some shots that are potentially fabulous that go undone because the risk of navigating the landscape and isolation alone are too risky...there is the concern that no one could hear you scream...

This is a shot of up the back view of the Sugar Mill, I love the view...and that I had bravely navigated several other shots that felt isolated. I am again learning to be a big Girl...and hoping that this will be the last time this exercise is necessary...

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Day at the Dog Show

Day at the Dog Show

January has offered a day at the AKC Benched Dog Show at the Cow Palace the past several years. Usually it is just us "crazy Pug people", and this year I invited Virginia to join our Group. She has shown Great Pyrenees there in the past.

Though there were less vendors than last year, there was some great Art. The pugs showed at 1:45 pm, instead of the former 8:30 am ... so we enjoyed viewing them in the ring.

Two take-away's from today ... I met a fabulous collage artist by the name of Sam Price ... his hair reminded me of a former collegue ... Steve ... and go figure , he was his son ... it was fun to catch up a bit ... and re-live the afternoon Steve and Rex taught me to operate a Drake-Willock dialysis machine ... man-style! The second takeaway was, when at a Dog Show, the expectation is that you will photograph dogs ... not rusty walls! While shooting this shot today, a Pug Man and his pug positioned themselves in front of me completly blocking my shot. Guess they had never seen a woman laying on the floor, camera pointed at perfect metal and rust ... smiling ear to ear ... and thought she was actually DOING something ... I pride myself on not being "ordinary!!"


Sunday, January 24, 2010

Rain, Mud and Muck

Rain, Mud and Muck

It seems as if it has been raining for a very long time...perhaps that is just my perception. The sky remains gray, the ground remains wet and slippery, and for horses the pastures remain mucky.

This is a picture I shot yesterday while touring back roads of my memories...good stuff! I like how the mud adds a dimension of texture and color to the blanket...and I know how much work the owner will invest to clean it...I do...and do not...miss those moments...

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Visiting the Past

Visiting the Past

I took a drive this morning ... curious to see some portions of my past. When Laur was in her early teens we owned a horse. We sold him when she required a spinal fusion to stablize her spine. The 5 years in between were some of the best moments of my life, and I spent hours busing girls back and forth to the barn, watching them groom, wash, ride, tack, clean stalls and just hang out.

Elvis had several homes during the time he was ours...he loved to be outside, and so an indoor-outdoor stall was our preference. As I wandered along country back roads today, I stopped at one of his former boarding Facilities...now empty, gates barely hanging on fences, brushes and buckets scattered in the barn aisle and the back door of the owners home open and swaying in the rain and breeze. The property was completly abandoned, and felt empty and sad.

This is one angle of the barn that I shot this morning...if I listened carefully, I could still here the girls laughing and talking...and the memories made me smile...

Friday, January 22, 2010

Routine

Routine

I have been in a routine that is changing...Friday was a day I looked forward to...it had its own special feeling and meaning. Today felt like this picture of junk...fabulous in some ways, not so fab in others. I have learned that I thrive on routine, even when critically thought out is known not to be in my over all best interest...you live you learn.

This is a picture I found last week while scouring the back roads around Napa...it was cold and wet...and fabulous...I will always be attracted to junk...and perhaps that says it all...

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Offers on the Table

Offers on the Table

Another day, another few dollars, and a new offer on the table...where does it end...what does it mean...??? Is it the one I want and will contribute to making me happy?

One of the many amazing things that I have paid attention to in the past 2.5 years is that the next big adventure is just around the corner...and the ringing of the phone and reviewing of my email can result in a direction I did not previously imagine...how is this reconciled....how does it even out?

This is a picture I took this summer ... it reminds my of a piece of rusted metal that is waiting for me in Northern California ... that in my mind would make a killer table...so this, as well as many dreams go on...and on...


Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Life Goes On...So They Say...

Life Goes On...So They Say

Today is still Wednesday...though it feels like a ???... I am not sure. My power was off, even though SMUD spent many hours during Fall replacing our 8 block "transformer", to prevent our yearly January multi-hour outage! My vehicle has gone from a 3 figure decimal place to a 4 figure decimal place repair and is still in the shop...and more paperwork is required to reach my goal of emancipation!

This is a picture I entertained myself with on Sunday...the day my life once again changed... I must admit that I will be glad when the "changes" are under reasonable control!!!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Today's Insight

Today's Insight

It seems like everyday brings a new adventure, and new insight. There are days that I appreciate this, and days I do not.

This afternoon I met an internet friend from my Pug Group...she is from Healdsburg and is staying in Sacramento while her pug is undergoing testing/procedures at UC Davis. We spent this afternoon and evening getting to know each other...she is a writer, and photographer...as well as someone who is married to someone she obviously loves very much, is in a happy relationship with, she glows in her own skin...something I dare to hope in quiet moments could be in my future...and something I have taken special care to screw up...up to this point...withdrawing and flight have become my self protective strategy, and now that I have figured this out, I am charting a new route.

One thing I have struggled with is how someone I loved had what appeared to be many "rules" around "things"...this afternoon it gobsmacked me that the very behavior I found difficult was mirrored by me...though my "rules" centered around how a "relationship" was to be conducted...perhaps a toll of a previous experience that was unpleasant and difficult. It feels great to have finally figured this out...and hopeful that I can do better next time...

This is a picture I took Sunday afternoon, as I drove alone looking for that one shot that would make it better...this barn did that to a point...though not a complete "cigar"...

The future is a mystical thing...and it is said it can be whatever you make it. Next on the agenda...what DO I want...and am I brave enough to make it happen...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Another Saturday in Paradise...

Another Saturday in Paradise...

This week was busy...SMF to LAX to San Bernadino to ONT to SMF...I was out of practice with packing, security was reasonable now that I know to send my Kindle thru the scanner with my laptop, and Starbuck's is still serving the Pumpkin Spice Latte, and grande was a fabulous one time trial size that made everything better.

Giovanni grew like a small weed in my absence, and has graduated to actually smiling now...so sweet...

This is a picture I took this morning while traveling to the Beach for our weekly visit, and the thrill of watching the pugs jet in circles. These Clydesdales' live in a huge pasture, and yet are nearly always huddled in the front corner near the highway, as if they enjoy watching the people and cars go by. Once we arrive at the Beach, it is entertaining to observe how Hannah, who continues to drag behind during most other walks, and can easily go a couple of miles in the salt air.

I am scheduled to be home for the next couple of weeks, the "to-do" list is long...and I look forward to knocking off a few more lines...

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Been Gone So Long I Could Not Remember My Sign-In and Password!


Been Gone So Long I Could Not Remember My Sign-In and Password!

So what started as intent to share this awesome horse shot I was lucky enough to get today, turned into a 30 minute journey to remember my "login" and correct password for my Blog. Even with the hints I hide away in my iPhone I was still off base...close but no cigar if you will. I am fully aware of my lack of memory now...and hold out little to no hope for the next couple of decades of my life...

Tomorrow I leave for LA, for several days of work, and perhaps a bit of fun...guess I need to get back to earning miles and airline miles...and thinking about where to go next...